Snow fell for the first time this year today, it was great to see. Gabes eyes lit up as he woke me up to show me it. Some things in life are unexplainable to me. I may not have school like most kids my age and I may not be working a 12 hour job, but my life is more hectic than anyone I know. I feel that I’ve been expected by my friends and even some of my family to put all of the effort into our relationships. Where I’m supposed to get this effort in a mystery to me. Because of Gabe, Robin and I spend most of our day minimizing stress. Trying to not take it out on Gabe because he doesn’t understand what he does. We are all only human and we have our limits. Is it too much to ask that somebody who isn’t being pushed past their limits, put some effort into our relationships. I love a lot of people deeply and I’m sure I haven’t had time to show them that lately. I just wish some people would look past their innitial feelings and see there is a bigger problem that needs solving. If I could have anything for Christmas this year, it would be for my friends and family to have compassion and understanding. I don’t have the umph to fight, and i’m about the curl up in a ball.
